Monday, October 21, 2013

Blue Ball Monday

One of the things I used to do on my old blog was a series called 'Blue Ball Monday'. With our busy lives even to this day, the only consistent window of opportunity for my wife and I to play in bed usually falls on Sunday night. Not including our rare date night opportunities, some of the most kinky and intense things would happen on Sunday nights for us. And, usually, I was denied orgasm and left so horny that my blue balls would burden me into the next morning.

Last night put me in that same mindset to write about my feelings today. I got my wife off three times by hands, mouth, and hitachi, the whole time being ridiculed about how she needed to be fucked properly and wished I was capable. Yet she denied me access inside of her. After she came for the last time, I was treated to a tease and denial session for a good while before she grew tired and went to sleep, leaving me rock hard. The prospect of seeing her naked breasts in the near future was mentioned, which only made the tease more intense since it had been years since I last saw them fully exposed.

I when I woke up this morning, got ready, and headed out for work, my mind was swirling with thoughts of sex. Naughty, kinky sex. The kind that arouses me most. I started to wish I was a woman. A beautiful blonde with big tits. I wanted to be dressed in slutty lingerie, complete with lucite heels, and suck off one hard cock after another until I was too full of sperm to walk.

Then I started to think of how hot women are to me. What any pretty woman can make me do. I could be such a loyal pet for any woman who wanted to debase me and revel in her control over another human being. Put me in a dog kennel at night for all I care, as long as you let me out every once In awhile to play and let me lick the dirt off of your feet.

It's obvious that the longer I'm denied orgasm, the more these thoughts creep into my head. But when I get a tease and denial such as last night, my sex drive leaves me a horny mess. I am leaking precum and my balls ache as I write this, and I need to get back to work.

Friday, October 11, 2013

It really is her penis now

Since my last blog entry, I went into a period of being allowed to orgasm inside of my wife. In roughly ten days, I was allowed to come three times, which is very uncommon in my situation.

Well last weekend, my wife put a stop to it. I had just fingered her to orgasm, and I asked if I could fuck her. She told me I could, but this time I wasn't going to be allowed to come. In the mindset I had at the immediate time, this was pure torture. Being able to get back on a more frequent orgasm schedule makes you expect, and even need, to continue orgasming. I pleaded with her to let me come just one more time and I'd promise to be good. She said no and told me that I haven't been attentive. She was taking away my big boy privileges.

So as I fucked her (I was actually able to last long enough to stroke in and out, albeit slowly, thanks to my frequent releases), I continued to plead with her. She said the same thing each time, that I wasn't being good enough when she lets me come. Finally, I gave up on the subject and soon, she pushed me out of her for good. I laid there with a throbbing erection and she could sense the pain of my blue balls by the look on my face.

She gave me the lecture on how she felt bad that she had to do this, but it was for the better. Then she let me cuddle on her heaving breast covered by her top. She put her arm around me and stroked my hair. At first, I thought this would get me even more aroused. But it actually seemed to calm me. My erection started to go away and it gave way to an inner sensation that felt so right. I looked up at her and said "Thank you, Mommy." She smiled. Then I told her that I promise to be good. She was happy with me.

Sometimes I wonder if my wife really likes the control she has over her husband because otherwise she is really vanilla. Then things like this happen and it confirms that she not only is the sole owner of my penis, she knows how to use that ownership against me when she wants to. After all, that episode scored her a very thorough pedicure the next day. And now I'm back to denied mode. Sexual satisfaction was fun while it lasted.