Tuesday, January 17, 2012
Playing With Fire
After my wife told me that my sex life was basically going to be reduced to that of a masturbating teenager, it took about a week to get over the emotional high which news of that nature can bring to a submissive male. Now it is time to think in terms of reality. In all likelihood, my fate isn't completely sealed. I can probably have intercourse with her in the near future because she will want it a lot sooner than she'll see her fuck buddy next. And as much enthusiasm as she showed the night she proclaimed I was cut off, she has easily let hard rules slide in the past when in the middle of a passionate sex session.
The big question for me is whether or not I should encourage her and help her stick to the rules. All it would take is a couple of times where I would re-enforce her during signs of weakness, reminding her of the advantages and reassuring her that I'm ready to make that commitment. She would eventually take my cue and turn it into absolute reality, the likes of which would eventually eliminate my choice in the matter. So am I really ready to do that?
As you can see, the picture above is from Cuckold Me Now, a website that has some pretty cool cuck videos if you like it extreme. Those of you just getting into the lifestyle or wanting to that are interested in extreme cuckolding, you probably look at the picture and think, "That cuck is so lucky. I'd love to live like that". But think about if that opportunity was presented to you right now. That you could change your life and live as a cuckold in chastity. Of course, you would have no control over your wife's sex life or your own orgasms. You would have to look yourself in the mirror every day and know you've been brought down a level in life. Not to mention, being humiliated in front of another man. Would you sign the dotted line right away? The reality of relinquishing so much control sinks in and you hesitate.
It is a situation similar to mine. If I told my wife to be diligent in her treatment of me, I would in turn be sealing my own fate. It would be my own fault if I couldn't handle the fact that I wasn't allowed to orgasm with my wife. It would be my own fault that my hand would be the only pleasure my penis would receive, sending me back to the days when I would stroke myself wondering what it was like to feel a woman. Should I strive for that, or should I save myself from the regrets that would arise down the road? At this moment, I'm leaning towards playing with fire and risking the burns that will come from it.